i feel like i'm in hell,
but wish i were in heaven ;
life is mistery to me,
in the way i feel it.

everything's wrong,
life's seems unfair;
it just isn't right ...
to me, to everybody ...

you see the movies;
you read the books;
enjoy the happy-end-ings,
but, it isn’t your case.

you say it is ok :
it's the way it should be
but, it's not; oh, no !
you should be happy !

you shouldn't be alone,
just with who you wanna be,
it seems so impossible ...
or maybe it just is ...

there are so many
twisted thoughts inside of me
it’s so unreal, but yet so true
it’s the reality i’m facing

gotta do something fast,
gota accept the situation
but i don’t know how
and i don’t want to ...

too bad, right?
i’m just another lonely soul
on this big bad and evil earth
but who cares?

like ...
could anybody ever care about me?
could anybody ever understand me?
or even try to?
please, just please
tell me i’m wrong
someone ...
anyone ...

for me ...

mai 2002